Fighting Cancer

If you read my blog entitled "The C word," you would've found out that my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer.

On July 9, 2010, I waited in the hospital from 6:45 am to 7:00pm for my mother to have surgery. They were going to take out lymph nodes and breast tissue to test them for more cancer, and to see if it had spread.

The surgeons took out 2 lymph nodes, not because they were necessarily cancerous, but they just wanted a good sample to test to make sure.

As soon as my mother came out of the anesthesia, she immediately started crying because A. she had woken up and B. because the surgery was over and she felt good.

But just today, July 20.2010, my mother called me and told me she has to undergo chemo and also get a mastectomy (hopefully my spelling is correct). A mastectomy is where all her breast tissue be taken out to rid her of the abnormal cells that still plagues her breasts.

This news made me even sadder, I feel devastated that my mother has to go through this, she has even decided to go through a double mastectomy, just to ensure she never has to experience this, in her other breast,again!

I am not sure how to deal with this, my mother is in Lethbridge and I am all the way in Calgary, and when you are dealing with something like Cancer, the distance between us seems even further.

I feel alone and helpless, and I don't have anyone who can relate to this situation to talk to. When I tell people my mom had been diagnosed with breast cancer, they just seem to think that it is so easy to fix, but I don't think that they realize what a life changing journey it is.

I am praying for my mom everyday. She is trying to stay positive and so I must to.

Lord, please watch over my mommy.

-B